The Bathroom

I repainted the bathroom Sunday night and laid linoleum this morning. Now I need to fill some holes, sand and paint those areas. I couldn't sand before I put the linoleum down because of the dust. But it looks so good and now I need a new shower curtain, rugs, and toilet seat. I'll post pictures soon.

It's really over, but I don't like it!

I know that it will never happen and I agreed to it as well, but I am NOT doing having Children! This is so apparent to me when I see babies, pregnant moms, tiny clothing, no more baby toys, though I am looking forward to no more diapers. It doesn't help that my cycles are clock work, ovulation on CD 16-18 with a lot of fertility signs, and very painful ovulation pain. I feel like my body is screaming at me that I should be having another child. It's KILLING me! I actually told Jesse wanted a hysterectomy because I can't handle this every month. It's a reminder that I will no longer create life, feel baby kicks, hiccups, or birth another child. What am I going to do when the kids don't need me anymore? I know all this eventually comes to an end, but I guess I wasn't ready. I'm not even sure if I can be a doula or midwife because when I come home, the desire is all the think about.