It's been a great outlet for me in the early days, but now I don't post or keep it updated. Over the past 6 months I've learned that I'm not super mom - or even the best mom I thought I was years ago. I feel reminded a lot that I'm not doing all the things for my family that I *could* be doing. And yet, it's coming from those who DON'T have a large family.
I'm not trying to be super mom. I only know how to cook a few items from scratch - I guess that's the price you pay for having a mother who became a mom at 16 and again at 18 and then her mother committed suicide before teaching her how to cook and to be an adult.
I'm not perfect, I don't claim to be. Just when I think I have it all together, I drop the ball. My goal has been to be better than my mother, I'm almost certain I failed, though I'm not an alcoholic and I actually love my kids. I guess that's something.
Maybe I'll come back to this one day.
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